A boring wednesday night blog.

I can’t think of anything to write today.
I tend to not write unless I’m semi-confident that something ‘good’ will be birthed.
Fuck it.
Suit up and show up. That’s what my friend Dave says.
So here I am at this blank screen with nothing, absolutely nothing to say.
Except that life loves me.
I showed up on my yoga mat [...]

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Cardboard memories.

There is a picture of me as a child being pushed around in a cardboard box by my older brother, Elliott.
I distinctly recall not wearing any clothes in the picture. I also do not recall me looking puzzled or questioning the ride.
For some reason, this memory surfaced yesterday as I was feeling extremely self loathing.
On [...]

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Transformation is a remembering…..

I pictured her sitting in my lap on the ground where my older brother and I used to play basketball. She had those big beautiful loose blonde curls falling around her face and her blue eyes sparkled so much you could swim in them. Her lips (gratefully inherited from her ‘Opa’)  curled up in a [...]

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Pre-homework blog

Is it slightly wrong to be studying/writing about the yoga sutras (ie. purifying the body and mind) while sipping on a glass of pinot?
Too bad. I have on a super cute dress with my “watch out world, here I come” boots and it just seemed right.
I found bliss today.
Maybe its the downward facing dogs, the [...]

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Any given day

As I was rolling silverware, completing an ordinary task I realized that the nooks and crannies of my life are anything but ordinary.
I currently work in a restaurant that is at worst dysfunctional (show me one that isn’t) and at best, humorous with a little side of “touched by an angel”.
Though working in a local [...]

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A note to me

Dear Megan,
I love you even when you take the easy way.
I love you when you do things that are not in the best interest of your heart and body.
I love you when you forget to trust, and start thrashing out of fear.
I love you when you are vulnerable with people and the after affects shake [...]

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Indignant Resignation

Her face fell flat to the earth as she kissed the tilled soil her feet relentlessly trod upon.
She thought that if she was able, she would dig a hold and bury her heart and soul, like a dog hidings its bone.
Too many times it had felt as if her heart and soul were a pig [...]

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This is my red donut blog entry: read at your own risk

Sri K Patthabi Jois apparently said
“Do your practice and all is coming”
However, that statement lacked an itinerary and cliff notes.
Downward facing dog today had me arguing with the Universe. I wanted her to know that I was doing my part by showing up (crazy fucked up thoughts in tow) and I would kindly appreciate if [...]

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Yoga has broken the seal on my tight heart

3 hours and $9.54 in beer later and I still hadn’t asked him out.
I’d like to take this opportunity to thank YOGA for serving as a high speed can opener for my heart. Apparently, I no longer want to live in fear and hiding and now when the opporuntity arises to step out of my [...]

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A list of gratitude and an Easter Ballot

1. Ann
2. Wendy
3. Employment
4. My yoga community
5. Spending the day of my birth sweating, meditating, and later devouring crepes
6. My first ever pet: Shaniqua (she’s a sophisticated fish. And she’s red.)
7. Mary from Yoga One
8. Two hands, two feet, two legs, and a heart capable of opening
9. Mat for putting gas in my car last [...]

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